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{Doodle Calm Thoughts: 1/21} Calm Thoughts in 21 Days?

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Last week, I wrote a blog post called Breathe and Let Go...

Well, today I'd like to expand on this just a bit more.  Last week, my husband was also away for training.  The 2nd time he's left me for a week this month.  So, yeah, I was going a little nutty.  :)

He came back Friday evening (SO thankful because he was able to come back a day earlier than he was supposed to) and boy was I wiped.  Every time he's away I feel way more burnt out than I already am.

And because of that, I've been thinking more about how I'm currently living my life as a mama, or shall I say, thinking about my life as a mama right now.

The night after writing my Breathe and Let Go post, I was beat.  Since C slept with me the night before I really wanted some connect-with-me time so I ended up blogging and doing other things while she napped instead of doing what was the most important-connect-with-me-time activity - RESTING and TAKING A MENTAL BREAK from the to-dos.

As exhausted as I was, all I could hear in my head was my husbands words, "Renee!  You need to stop trying to help others right now and just help yourself.  Take care of you.  Have fun.  Take care of C.  Blog.  Take pictures.  Stop trying to help others right now and just help you."

He ALWAYS says that to me, but for some reason I just never listen to him and he always gets mad at me, because in the end, he's always right.

With him being gone mixed with C's teething and no time for ME,  I started thinking way more negatively than I should be.

I began to miss the comforts of home in Florida and my days before becoming a mommy.

I began to beat myself up for still having post baby weight to lose (because this mama is a nutrition coach and she should have lost all post baby weight by now!!) and that my wedding rings still don't fit as they should (they go on my finger, but they're just too tight for me).

I was focusing on the "I do everything for everyone else.  I'm home alone.  I have no time! I just want to lose this weight...NOW!  When am I gonna have time to myself??" thoughts.

I started to go in a major downward negative thought spiral, which basically ran around the theme of: "I have NO time for me"!!

And then it hit me - like my gut always does!!!  "Yep, my husband is right...AGAIN.  I'm not taking care of myself and my thoughts are way too dominated in to-dos and self-criticism."

And, then, wouldn't you know it, I finally found some ME time (during C's nap the next day) and I watched Oprah's LifeClass on You're Responsible for Your Life.   The exact show I need at this time.

Oprah talked about her past show when she had on Jill Bolte Taylor who suffered a stroke in 1996.  What's SO freakin' cool about her story is that she was totally in right-brain when this happened.

When we're living life in what I like to call, right-brain-land...

  • we're present
  • in the moment
  • BEing
  • thinking in pictures

When we're living life in left-brain-land...

  • we're using language
  • identity
  • focusing on the past and the future
  • "doing" - which means we're full-on dominated by our "to-do" list

And what I know for sure...now that I'm a Creatively Fit Coach, is that we need both to live a balanced life.

And what I ALSO know for sure...is that I haven't been doing both and my life is out of balance - especially when it comes to my thinking.

I've spend the past 6 months or so writing a new 12-session program.   The reason?  Because as soon as I started doing my Creatively Fit work, I knew I had to share this message with others.

Because of this inner-need to spread this message, I put myself on the back burner.

Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not 100% on the back burner.  I still take daily hot baths at the end of the day and I do yoga and meditate when I can and I strive to take daily walks outside when my mama time permits.

But I'm still not feeling my best mama self because I've been slacking in my mindless-creativity activities.  My thoughts were letting me know last week when my husband was gone BIG TIME!

I felt alone, tired, ugly, fat, stressed, frustrated, missing the past, wondering about the future and most of all...disconnected to myself.

You see, all those other activities that I've been doing; baths, yoga, mediate, eating beautiful foods and daily walks...aren't doing me any good if my thoughts are out of whack.  

And that's the reason why I've chosen to do this work (because I'm living proof of this!).  I want to help others balance yucky left-brain thoughts that can take over and dominate, but...like we all know, I can't help others if I'm not helping myself.

So with that, I've made a commitment to give myself the love that I need and crave.  It's time for me to take a step back and let my right-brain take over for a bit, because I'm the ONLY one who can do this...no one else!

My gut has been telling me for some time now to just stop everything and just paint for 30 days. But I never truly listened...until now.  Sure I doodle and paint...but I haven't been doing it "daily."

Because we have Thanksgiving plans with family, I've decided to shorten the days from 30 to 21.

Starting (last night) I'll be painting and/or doodling for 21 days straight and documenting each day here on my blog. 

The reason?  To balance and calm my thoughts and my life.

One of my favorite, favorite authors is Louise Hay.  I read her book, You Can Heal Your Life, a few years ago. After this past week, my gut told me to read it again, so I pulled it out this weekend!

Louise Hay, You Can Heal Your Life

I'm SO happy I did because this book is all about helping to think more positively.

One section really stood out as to why I'm doing Creatively Fit work and why I'm finally making a commitment to myself by doodling for 21 days.

I've been consumed with nutrition since I was in 8th grade.  And now that I'm a mommy, I've shifted.  And the way I've shifted is perfectly stated by Louise Hay.

"To spend our time berating ourselves for being too heavy, to feel guilty about every bite of food we eat, is just a waste of time.  Twenty years later we can still be in the same situation because we have not even begun to deal with the real problem.  All that we have done is to make ourselves more frightened and insecure, and then we need more weight for protection.

So I refuse to focus on excess weight or diets.  For diets do not work.  The only diet that does work is a mental diet - dieting from negative thoughts."

Even since I've had my daughter, I've said that I'm living proof of this.  I've wasted too many years focusing on nutrition.

Yes, amazing, beautiful food is important...but, what I know now, dieting from negative thoughts is way healthier!!  

I should have been shifting my thinking since 8th grade!! :) 

And the way I've found to do that is through mindless-creativity.

Doodling...especially painting (something I never, ever thought I'd be doing in my life) is the most amazing activity that I've ever done to help calm and relax my mind.

And I've tried everything!!  But this...this IS pure heaven!

It's SO very hard to explain the shift that happens to me, but it's amazingly, positive.

I like to compare it to the feeling of just getting out of the pool on a hot summers day...refreshed, relaxed and happy!

I feel lighter and that everything is OK in my world - something this mama needs!!

So my problem isn't the food, my weight, my military lifestyle that has me living far from family and friends - my problem is that I've disconnected with myself, the present moment, positive thoughts and positive living.

I haven't been taking care of ME and I've been letting stress takeover my life.

So for the next 21 days, I'll be documenting my life as I add more mindless-creativity to it.  

This is 21 days for ME!!

Every night, after C goes to bed, no more mindless-computer time.

I now devote the hour after C goes to bed for doodling time.  And then, after that..it's bedtime (because I'm also in major need of rest).

So get ready...for the next 21 days {Doodle Calm Thoughts} will be coloring this space with lots of love, self-care and balanced-positivity! 

Here's the painting I did last night.  Day 1 ~ I call it: Flower Love!

The most amazing thing about this painting...after going through Louise Hay's book, she had sunflowers with a heart in the middle all throughout the chapters.

While reading, I thought, "Oh, I want to paint that!"

I used her book as a guide and this is what came through my right-brain.  I just LOVE it!!

I feel calm and peaceful and it reminds me to shower myself with self-care daily when I look at it.

Ahhhhhhhhh!!!

I SO needed this!   I feel way more balanced today.My worries melted away.  Well, not completely...but they definitely don't feel SO strong in my mind.

And, that's why I'm doing this work and will be sharing with others!! ;);)

This is why I doodle: to calm my thoughts, feel refreshed and to handle stress with more ease.  Because living my life in a very left-brain dominated way is causing me to feel more stressed than ever and its completely leaving me on the bottom of my to-do list feeling extremely burnt out!!  Um!! No thank you!!

Here's a visual reminder to see how right-brain activity is very much needed in a left-brain world - color creates calm, balance and FUN! :)

This illustration in a Mercedes Benz ad (of all things) really nailed the right-brain/ left-brain functions in this visually exciting illustration! The ad copy reads:

(Left:) "I am the left brain. I am a scientist. A mathematician. I love the familiar. I categorize. I am accurate. Linear. Analytical. Strategic. I am practical. Always in control. A master of words and language. Realistic. I calculate equations and play with numbers. I am order. I am logic. I know exactly who I am."

(Right:) "I am the right brain. I am CREATIVITY. A free spirit. I am passion. Yearning. Sensuality. I am the sound of roaring laughter. I am taste. The feeling of sand beneath bare feet. I am movement. Vivid colors. I am the urge to paint on an empty canvas. I am boundless imagination. Art. Poetry. I sense. I feel. I am everything I wanted to be." source: TED

:: Are you living your life dominated with left-brain thinking and activity?  I'd love for you to join me in the {Doodle Calm Thoughts} fun.  If you feel up to it, post your pictures on my Facebook page - I promise, it's a safe place for sharing! ::

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