stuck on love
Remember yesterday, when I said it's been 3 weeks since I've doodled? And, do you remember when I said that I'm pretty rusty with them right now?
Well, yeah...I'm still rusty.
You should see all the 'draft' papers I've been going through. I really need to take a picture of all my drafting mess so you can truly see my process...or better yet, take video.
I really want to start video taping my doodles, but I have NO idea how to do it, but it's definitely something I want to learn and do more for you. If you know how to do this, and then edit them to speed up, please contact me!! I really need the help!
But, anyway, when I get stuck like this (and what I mean by stuck, is that I'm not digging the way my doodles look and I keep saying, "UGH!! This looks horrible!!" it's a HUGE sign that I NEED to be sitting down to doodle.
You see, I didn't always know this. I used to just think, "yeah, I'm NOT creative!" and then I'd quit. But, now, after all my Creativity Coach learning and doing, I know this is NOT a bad thing.
What it means is that I've been way too in my left-brain head. I've been redesigning my website, updated my About Me stories and get my eNewsletter and F.R.E.E. eBook up and running again...the side that is very, very technical, right? Right!
Now, don't get me wrong, this isn't a bad thing either. I need my left-brain, but because my time is SO limited in my adult life, my left-brain activity was getting more attention, which meant, my right brain, doodling/creativity, side wasn't getting any loving attention.
Just like the left-brain needs daily love, so does the right brain.
And that brings me to my 'feeling stuck' with my doodles.
I was trying to do words that came to me a few weeks back, but, like I said, I wasn't liking any of them.
FINALLY, my right brain clicked in and said, "just start with something E A S Y and something YOU know that'll bring you instant calm."
And, so, the word L O V E it is. Aaaaahhhhhhhh!!
You haven't seen this one before, right? ha!
Now THIS felt good right away, just like it ALWAYS does! I can never tire of LOVE. Can you?
But, for me, when it comes to doodling, it's not about creating something new each and every time I sit down to doodle. That's not my intention with them.
My intention is to calm my mind and to get an uplifting break from all the to-do's (hello, left-brain!) I'm doing from the moment I wake up in the morning and until the moment I go to sleep at night.
It's not about the outcome, it's about how it makes me feel within.
And if that means doodling the same word over and over again or creating the same thing over and over again, so be it! All that matters is that I'm feeling more calm than when I first sat down to create.
So for now, as I transition back to balancing my left and right brain activity, by adding in creative, uplifting doodling to my very, left-brain, life (busy, multi-tasking mom here!!), I'll be starting with words that bring me instant calm.
And that may mean, you'll see the words LOVE or JOY over and over again. But, what I know for sure, the more 'daily' love my right brain gets, the more I'll be on my way to finding my uplifting 'doodle' flow again, in my very multi-tasking filled, busy mama world.
I just have to give it some time, but my inner, creative self WILL bloom again...probably sooner, than later.
So, if you wanna BE more creative, but when you sit down and you start to FEEL stuck and you hate everything you're putting to paper, just start with something that FEELS really good to you, something that's EASY, like coloring with your kids or just picking one word that you know you can create with ease, until, finally, you'll see your creative self flow through.
We just have to give it some time, because it all depends on how left brain we've been or are being. Baby steps!
Please, don't give up! Because your creative L O V E will shine through! Promise!
Until next time,
Why doodle??? Because it easily calms the mind and helps YOU connect within to your inner, creative self so it can flow and shine through, no matter how busy and stressful the day may be. Something that's very hard to do when your mind is five miles ahead or behind the present moment.