thankful

handwritten and painted by renee

This week, I'm on a grateful/thankful kick!

A year before I  become a mom, I'd get up in the morning, get ready for the day, make breakfast and then I'd sit down and write all my gratitude's down. It was an (inner joy and happy!) life changer for me.

Now that I'm a mom, I crave time to just sit, in silence, and write my joys, my gratitudes, my loves, my visions, my intentions and my prayers down. 

Because, when I write them, especially in the quiet, it does amazing things for my inner world. I'll find time, but it's not consistent as I'd like it to be.

For instance, I'll think, "I'll get up even earlier in the morning to write!" And then, sleeping wins, and right now, it needs to.

So then, I'll think, "I'll do it before bed, after the kids are asleep!" But then, I'm too tired to do anything after that, and sleep wins, which it needs to right now!

So then, I'll think, "I'll write them while the kids are happily playing!" And then I try, but the noise distracts me and then they're coming up to me asking me questions or they start fighting.

So...I just try to remember to say then in my head, which really isn't the same. It doesn't bring me that same feeling when I write. 

But, these days, I'm really determined to make this work, because it's something that's a 'must do' in my life. So, for now, in my current, very limited me time mama life, if I can sit and write one or two things (or just say them in my head or just doodle thankful) instead of pages and pages in one sitting, I'm OK with that (well, starting to be...because I'd love to sit and write and write and write without any interruptions!).

I'm SO thankful that I have two little who keep me on my toes 24/7 and who remind me to say "thank you!" every time I look at them...

well trying to...it's not easy to think 'thankful' thoughts when they're screaming with anger at me because they want something that I'm not letting them have...but, I'm trying...ha!!... 

because I definitely need the reminder while living my oh, so very busy mom life!