I Need To Simply Be More

Every time I lay down in bed, cover myself up and turn on one of my Deepak Chopra and Oprah, Find Your Flow, meditations and Oprah says, "simply be."
 

I let out a BIG AAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!
 

As I FEEL all my tension release and my body get still.

I spend my mama days rushing around, frazzled, multi-tasking, laughing, smiling, frowning, happy, feeling love, feeling angry, wanting to pull my hair out, run away, grabbing my kids and hugging them for as long as they'll let me, comforting tears, getting bandaids, cooking food, cleaning dishes, loading the dishwasher, unloading the dishwasher, doing laundry, putting laundry away, dancing, reading books, listening to my kids read books, watching my kids do the floss, looking at all the houses my kids created in Minecraft, doodling, painting, blogging, remembering to add food the grocery list, getting gas, making the bed, talking to D while the kids talk over us, disciplining, disagreeing with D on disciplining, laughing with D, exercising, doing yoga, meditating, getting baths ready, making lunches, brushing teeth, taking a shower, getting the kids to school on time, doctor appointments, haircuts, taking the kids to Target and saying "NO!" 100 times while I'm there AND SO MUCH MORE!!!

So the second Oprah says, "simply be." The roller coaster ride that I'm on, with all its twists and turns and upside down maneuvers, finally comes to a STOP! 

And for those 15 to 20 minutes that I'm meditating on those words...

I FEEL AMAZING!!!

No one needs me. No one is talking to me. My body is still. My eyes are closed. And all I FEEL is absolute stillness. 

Even though I wish I could SIMPLY BE every single second of the day, I'm SO happy when I can sneak away to my bed, cover myself up, turn off the noise from the world for a bit and simply be!

It's amazing how quickly those words calm me! 

It's amazing how much I CRAVE those words!!

Especially if it's been awhile since I've connected with them.

Oh, my mama life! It may be the hardest thing I've ever done, but it IS the number one thing that has ever connected me more to my inner self and more to what my heart and soul CRAVE and NEED! 

I was never, ever, THIS aware and this connected to my inner self before becoming a mom. 

It's because of all the movement, all the noise, all the frazzle, all the overwhelm, all the fears, all the worries, all the exhaustion and all the JOY that led me to putting a moment of stillness on my to-do list. If I wasn't SO frazzled, I would have never connected with ways to balance it all with some inner calm, some inner peace, and most of all, some inner stillness, which allows me to release it all and simply be! 

I'd never FEEL how amazing it FEELS to SIMPLY BE if I never FELT the crazy all my mama frazzle brings! There's a time for all the frazzle and there's a time to SIMPLY BE! And when the frazzle is getting out of hand, it's even more important to SIMPLY BE! 

And that makes the JOYous and not-so JOYous mama roller coaster ride SO, very well, worth it!!

Because, gosh!! I had no idea that all the frazzle I feel. All the movement that has me on my feet all day long and all the exhausting to-dos that fill my days, would actually become something I'd learn to appreciate and give thanks for (rather than just BEing something I constantly complained about all the time!), because it taught me and showed me how AMAZING it FEELS to simply be!!! 

In what ways do YOU love to simply be from all your frazzle? I'd love to hear! 

Until next time...

Why do I hand letter uplifting words?  Because it easily calms my mind and soothes my soul so I can SIMPLY BE no matter how overwhelming and stressful my day may be (something that's hard to do when my mind is running five miles ahead or behind the present moment).

Tools used: black super sharpie | sakura koi watercolors | canson mixed media sketchbook | edited in Adobe Photoshop