Fly My Girl...Fly!

I’ve been taking some time to just BE with ME these past few months since my kiddos started school, and I have to say, it’s been wonderful!

Ahhhhh…a quiet house is absolutely WONDERFUL and does wonders for my body, mind and soul!!

Usually, when summer is about to come to and end, all I think about is how the day the kids go back I’m going to jump right back into blogging and all my creative activities that I love to do.

Well, this year (and last year!), I haven’t done that.

I ended up just crashing the first month and have had absolutely NO desire to do anything productive except be still and not move.

A quiet and still house does that to me! ;)

Then the second month, I start to feel myself having desires to create and blog again.

But then I get sucked into social-media-land and I end up scrolling on my couch for way too long, which then has me eating lunch and then getting ready for the kiddos to come home from school.

Time flies when you’re caught up in social-media-land! Ugh!

SO NOT GOOD…NOT GOOD at all!

Well, now that I’m almost at the end of my third month since school started (and with the help of de-activating my Facebook and not getting on Instagram anymore…more to come on this!)…I’m ready to dive back in!

And what better way with the word fly.

C is now in “middle” school, I mean…4th grade…and has officially been riding her bike to school all on her own.

It’s been hard for me to let go of not taking her to school and dropping her off in car line (something I’ve been doing since she was in Pre-K) because, for me, there’s nothing more JOYous than watching her walk into school happily with her friends and then picking her up with a BIG smile on her face when I pick her up in the afternoon.

It truly is one of my favorite things to do as a stay-at-home-mom…and something I’m SO grateful that I get to do and experience every day while they’re in school!

So now, while she rides down our street to the gate (which I’m SO grateful is located at the end of our street!!), I walk to the end of the drive way and watch her until I can’t see her anymore.

My 41-year-old eyes aren’t as good as they used to be…boooo! Ha!

Then, when she gets out of school for the day, I hop on my bike and ride half way up and down the street and wait for her.

The first day I went down to the gate in the morning and the afternoon…so I’m slowly getting further and further away…slowly! Ha!

Shortly after slowly getting further away, she got home and immediately said to me…

“Mom…You don’t have to wait for me after school. You can leave the garage door open for me and you can stay inside the house and make me a snack. You can make me peanut butter and jelly!”

Um…WHAAAAAAT!?!?

You want me to stay inside the house and not watch you!?!

Ummmm….NO WAY, JOSE!!!! Ha!!

But then, immediately after my thoughts of NOT watching her anymore freaked me out, I thought, keep FLYing my girl, keep FLYing!!!

Like I always say, motherhood is absolutely bittersweet for me!!

And the thought of sending my kiddos out into the world to FLY on their own terrifies the crap out of me, but at the same time, hearing her say, “you don’t have to wait for me” absolutely melted my heart, because even though she’s still a very young 4th grader, she showed me that she has confidence in herself to FLY!!!!

And yes, I’m going to do everything I can to continue to support her in her FLYing out into the world endeavors!

Even if I am still watching her from afar without her knowing AND even though she told me to wait in the house and I still go outside and wait for her AND…I just can’t help myself. ;)

But, luckily, she hasn’t gotten mad at me for it yet.

Because, I know, even though she wants to FLY all on her own, she still wants me to watch her.

Because, yeah, I still hear the words, “mom…watch me do this!” over and over again! :)

Words, that at times, can drive me crazy, but really, deep down, always remind me that I’m still very much needed…no matter how much older and independent they get and want to be. :)

Until next time...

Why do I hand letter uplifting words? Because it easily calms my mind, ignites my joy and slows me down so I can BE a more calm, happy + present mom (something that's hard to do when my mind is running five miles ahead or behind the present moment...especially during summer break!) and truly focus on what matters in my life and all the GOOD that fills it!